Say What?! The P31 Intern Experience

Becoming a Proverbs 31 Intern has been my biggest “Say What?!” moment to date. In honor of my last days in the office, I’m linking up with Online Bible Studies to celebrate what this summer has meant to me. 

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Proverbs 31: Bringing Peace, Perspective and Purpose to Today’s Busy Woman 

I’m pretty positive I saw the phrase “today’s busy woman,” and took it as a personal challenge. As the self-proclaimed Involvement Queen on my college campus and Overeager Young Professional, I made it my mission to be the most unique email in a potential employer’s inbox. “I’m currently living in another country, but I’d REALLY like to intern for you,” I wrote. But when I sent a perky message to P31, they stayed true to their word and exceeded my slightly ridiculous expectations by intersecting my life in the Mediterranean Sea. That’s right, God confirmed my internship plans for the summer when I was somewhere in between Santorini, Greece, and Dubrovnik, Croatia. I was living a life of riding donkeys and eating gelato, but my mind was focused on a ministry several thousand miles away.  Little did I know this “Yes” would just be the beginning of my “Say What?” adventure.

Minutes after I walked into the P31 office, Satan began attacking me with fears and doubt. The stable foundation my testimony was built on was flipped upside down and inside out. He whispered, “What did God do for you? I don’t see any proof of that here.” My peace was gone, my perspective was fogged, and my purpose uncertain. I wish I could have coffee with each of you to describe how much this has changed this summer, but here are a few snapshot moments that will give you a small glimpse:

Peace: I started praying circles. Leah, my supervisor, and I began to go through The Circle Maker together each week, planning to pray for big things and more than we could ask for or imagine. In the beginning, peace was way, way, way, more than I could ask for or imagine. Battling terrifying nightmares and restless days, I truly did not believe it would happen. But God. Each night, I circled and circled and circled prayers with a specific verse, until one night in particular, I had a different dream. In it, the worst possible scenario was happening and my family and friends were gathered around to tell me how awful my imminent death would be. Confidently, I stood up and told them they were all liars, that no matter if I lived or died, Christ loves me and He will wrap His arms around me no matter what. The next morning at work, I skeptically mentioned the details to someone who responded, “Kait, that means you finally fully believe with all your heart, even in your subconscious mind.” What verse had I been circling? “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding.” Proverbs 3:5-6

Perspective: Each week, we had a teaching from a woman in the Proverbs office on their topic of choice. This was the best part of the week, and we were fortunate to hear from so many different walks of life. Although each story was different, they each shared a common thread. The story of a young woman, raped two days after her college graduation. Someone raised in a cult who was shunned for leaving the church. The granddaughter of a drug dealer and prostitute, who was known as the popular cheerleader in high school but never as the homeless, broken girl she really was. A speaker whose dreams were shattered when asked to step away and reevaluate her gifts. A woman who was engaged to a man who later took back the proposal twice. As time went by and I heard one story of redemption after another, my faith perspective shifted from one of rules and predictability to grace and expectation. I entered a girl holding onto a pocketful of short glimpses of grace, and am leaving with open hands, confident in what has happened and joyfully expectant in what will happen.

 

Purpose: I came into this internship hoping for experience that would either deter me or spur me on toward a particular field. I didn’t get what I asked for, but I learned I didn’t need what I asked for, either. Through these amazing women, God taught me that I don’t have to have it all together. I learned that radical obedience is better than the most detailed plan. The question is not, “Should I go into ministry?”, it’s “Where is God leading me today?”

Thank you, Proverbs 31 Ministries for providing peace, perspective, and purpose into this busy-turned-quiet-heart and taking part in my most exciting “Say What?” adventure yet. Your encouragement, commitment, and example of trust refreshed my hope and challenged my faith in the best way possible.

I began as an intern wanting to spread encouragement and Good News to women around the world, but it turns out I was the one that needed to hear it the most.

To read about the other fabulous interns this summer, hop on over to their blogs and show them some love: CamrynAnnaLexie

 

72 thoughts on “Say What?! The P31 Intern Experience

  1. This gave me chills … I completely agree with all of it. So blessed by you this summer and P31 and all we have learned. We have an amazing God! Can’t wait to press forward chasing after Him with you and all of our sisters!

    1. Love sitting and laughing with you every day and will miss you more than words can say! Thank you for your constant encouragement and always pointing me to The Truth.Started from the bottom…now we’re here.

  2. Thank you so much for sharing this with us! I too am reading the circle maker we are on chapter 7 and the prayer group I am in is amazing, I have been praying circles around things for some time now and am waiting on God’s perfect timing in all. I love to hear how God is working and through others to give them a #saywhat moment

    1. Hey Leandra! Praying for you as you process The Circle Maker and experience #saywhat moments!! Be encouraged, He’s got great things in store for you!

  3. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I love the personality that shines through as you. You are truly a light that shines brightly for the Lord. Thank you for sharing such a perfect example of how God works through us. 🙂

    1. Carol Lyn, you certainly have the gift of encouragement! Thanks for making my day!!

  4. Thank you for sharing your story and for giving personal testimony to the power of prayers.

  5. Wow!! Wow, wow, wow!! What an amazing testimony to saying #YestoGod. I loved this blog, thank you so much for sharing your experiences!

    Kris Danko (OBS Small Group Leader)

    1. Kris, thanks so much for stopping by! God is amazing, isn’t He?! So happy to connect with you here! Thanks for all you do!

  6. I learned that radical obedience is better than the most detailed plan. The question is not, “Should I go into ministry?”, it’s “Where is God leading me today?” This is so powerful. Love your post, thanks so much for sharing it with us today!!!

    1. Thanks for stopping by, Janet! So good to hear from you. Blessings on your YES journey!

  7. Kaitlin, you spoke right to my heart this morning! I have been struggling the past couple of days just I guess emotionally. Allowing satan to fill my head with stupid thoughts I’m not even going to repeat because I don’t want him to get any glory. I just finished reading the circle maker so that just reopened my eyes & just helped me remember I do matter. Thanks so much for being a yes girl!

    1. Tonya, so great to have met you here this morning! I’ll be praying for you as you process through The Circle Maker! Thanks for taking part in OBS!

  8. “I learned that radical obedience is better than the most detailed plan.”

    Those words speak volumes to me. Thank you so much for sharing from your heart. I am learning that this radical obedience is the best for my life, but sometimes it is just hard to do. Thank you for your encouraging words.

    1. It’s such a hard lesson to learn but SO worth it, isn’t it?! Thank you for YOUR encouraging words!

  9. Kaitlin,
    I am forever grateful that the Lord found you and brought you to Proverbs 31 Ministries this summer. I can honestly say that this was my favorite summer at P31 ever and the interns are a big part of that.

    I love your peace, purpose, and perspective you shared in your blog post today. Thank you so much for being a part of our blog hop and I hope you’ll post again!

    You know I had a special connection to you from the beginning my AWESOME Gamecock DZ sista!!!! And we will have to keep in touch especially during football season 🙂

    Gonna miss you and I know God has amazing plans for you!

    Love you!!!!

    1. MELISSA! I feel so honored that THE Melissa Taylor commented on my blog:) Love you so much and have been so blessed to know you this summer. I can’t say goodbye because we have to keep in touch, especially during football season. Go Gamecocks!

  10. Katlin, thank you for sharing your story and experience with us! I know God will continue to bless you as you move forward on your YES journey and give you many more #SayWhat moments.

    1. Beckey,
      Thank you so much for stopping by! Praying for your #SayWhat moments!!

  11. Very cool testimony of how God exceeded your expectations! I’m intrigued to learn more about this “circle making,” so I just downloaded the book.

    1. Misty- it’s Mark Batterson’s awesome book. Let me know how you like it!! I’m so excited for you!

  12. Hi Sister 🙂

    So thankful for this summer with you. Can’t wait to see where God launches you, and am so blessed to be real life friends AND blogging friends! You have such a gift for writing – keep your eyes fixed on Him and He will lead you. xoxo

    Lexie

    1. LEXIE- talk about tears!! You are the sweetest. So blessed to have spent the summer with you. I can’t wait to see what amazing things God is going to do through your new season at P31. Love love love you! xoxo

  13. Sounds like you had a wonderful #SayWhat experience with the ladies at P31. I am sure you were as much of a blessing to them as they were to you. Good luck with all you do and God bless!!

  14. Kaitlin what an awesome #SayWhat testimony. Thank you for reminding me about “The Circle Maker.” I too read it, but haven’t put it into practice…yet! It’s time to start circling my prayers with Scripture. I wish you all the best as you go where God leads you! <3

    1. Thank you so much, Lori! The Circle Maker is awesome and definitely something to revisit! Let me know how it goes! Thanks for all you do with OBS!

  15. Wow! What a great life and example that you are living. Thank you for being will to say #YestoGod. May your life continue to be blessed and to bless others.

    1. Thank you for blessing me, Marlene! Hope you are enjoying your #YestoGod journey!

  16. What a fun and for real testimony of your #saywhat time at Proverbs 31. Sounds like it far exceeded what you thoughts were about the internship. So happy for you and wish you nothing but the best as you walk with God. Thanks for sharing your story 🙂

    Trish (OBS small group leader)

    1. God absolutely exceeded my expectations! He seems to be good at that:) Thanks for everything you do with OBS, Trish!

  17. We will miss your sweet smile and spirit around the office…not to mention the fabulous work you contributed.

    Thank you for speaking these wise words:

    I learned that radical obedience is better than the most detailed plan.

    I am such a “detail” and “make a list and do it girl” that I sometimes forget to stop and take a breath and listen for God’s whispers to be certain I am still on His agenda and not mine. I needed this precious reminder that sometimes God will call me to do something not on my agenda list but that is on His. I need to be available and ready to say “yes!”

    I pray the Lord will continue to lead you step by step as you seek His will for you!!!

    Blessings,

    Wendy

    1. Wendy! You blessed me SO much this summer, from sharing your story to anointing our hands for God’s service to just being an encouraging presence. Love you so much-keep in touch!

  18. Loved this… especially the line about entering with a small pocketful of grace glimpses. Beautiful writing. Praying for you, sweet lady, as you continue on your journey!
    Lauren, P31 OBS Small Group Leader

    1. Thank you so much, Lauren!! Praying for you and thankful for what you do for OBS!

    1. Oh, I am just so excited to hear what comes out of your promise circling, Stephanie! Keep me updated!

  19. Kaitlin…thank you so much for sharing your story with us. So many powerful truths tucked into this post. No doubt God has great plans for you and I can’t wait to see what’s next! He continues to speak to my heart about several matters, one of which He confirmed again…this time through you. “The question is not, “Should I go into ministry?”, it’s “Where is God leading me today?” Your words blessed me today! Grace for the next stop on your journey! 🙂

    1. Shelly-thank you for blessing me with your words of encouragement! Thank you for everything you do for OBS and the Blog Hop:)

  20. Bless you! Thank you for sharing. I’ve never heard of “The Circle Maker” or praying circles, but that one section immediately pricked my heart. Where can I learn more?

  21. Thank you for giving us a glimpse inside the P31 office. We see God’s amazing work here on OBS, man blessings for your next journey with God.

    1. Lori, I wish everyone had the joy of spending a day in the P31 office-such wisdom! Thank you for everything you do for OBS!!

  22. This- “I learned that radical obedience is better than the most detailed plan.”
    I LOVED! Thank you for sharing! Prayers to you as God leads you into your tomorrow.

  23. Kaitlin, wow so glad God blessed you with the opportunity to work with the P31 ladies 🙂 God will bless your next steps, just keep your eyes focused on Him. I love hearing about your experience praying circles, I have the book but haven’t read it. Sounds like I need to get on it!

    1. Thank you so much for your kind words, Amanda!! Thank you for everything you do for OBS!

  24. What an awesome testimony to God. Thank you for sharing, you passed your blessings onto everyone else who reads your blog!!

    1. Joyce-this blessed me more than you will know! I’m so glad what God teaches me inspires others, too. Thank you so much, I’m praying for you on your #YestoGod journey!!

  25. Kaitlin,
    You are a gifted writer with an engaging style. I’m glad you shared your experiences with all of us and I’m glad you had this opportunity. I have a feeling that God has big plans for you–especially since you have learned so much about listening for His voice and searching for His path. Best of wishes for your future!
    Oh, and GO Gamecocks 🙂

    1. Thanks, Sandi!! So glad you stopped by! Thanks for everything you do for OBS and Go Gamecocks!!

  26. Kaitlin,

    What a blessing it is to read how God ministered to you this summer! You must believe that you have been as big a blessing to the ladies of P31 as they have been to you. Your heart for God is evident in your writing. In just the few short emails you & I shared I saw your heart for encouraging women. I pray that you will continue to shine God’s light to women where ever you go. Blessings in all that God has planned for you.

    In His Calm,
    Mary

  27. Thank you for this blog, Kaitlin. Sometimes when we enter into a opportunity to help others, we end up helping ourselves more. Good luck on what God has in store for you!

  28. Thank you SO much for all you invested this summer, Kaitlin! It was our privilege to have you here (and I am hating looking at your empty “desk” this morning!)

    Love, Me

  29. Kaitlin!!!! I loved this beautifully insightful blog! I believe that you and I have a lot in common! I am currently studying in Rome but I am a Messiah College student. The hardest part about studying aboard is that I had to leave the Women’s ministry I started at my school called “Flourish” behind. But by the grace of God and a lot of hard work Flourish is functioning without me this semester and still impacting girls on that campus. I am constantly looking for opportunities, wisdom, and guidance that can further my leadership skills to better help the girls that come to Flourish. I would LOVE to be a P31 intern, however, the application is not on the website. Could you possibly email me with more details about your experience at P31? I would so greatly appreciate it! My email is ew1271@messiah.edu

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